it is beyond fucked that the phrase, what can be said that hasn’t already been said before? is prominent rhetoric about children being murdered at their elementary school.

i watched a movie & when i turned my phone off there were 15 people dead. when i turned it back on the amount of confirmed dead increased by five. by the time i began writing this post to hitting ‘publish,’ the number of confirmed dead children increased from 18 to 19.

the ag of texas is suggesting teachers be trained & armed. i’m just thinking about that training room where they show some 29-year-old, fresh out of grad school & wanting to help 11-year-olds learn math, a life-size printout of a teenager holding an assault rifle and telling them to shoot it in the face until they’re numb to the idea of it being a real kid. absolutely psychotic even to just imagine, much less present as a ‘solution’ to anything.

—this is all on top of the fact cops had a gunfight with the shooter before he entered the school, but the cops waited for a swat team to show up before going in after him. meaning the fucking police waited outside of a school where they knew a gunman was inside killing kids. anyone who promotes the fucking cops as another solution can get fucked, these pigs are cowards

families are getting swabbed for dna because some of the children can’t be identified. “the agonized screams of family members are audible from the parking lot.”

i have no children to worry for & shit like this still just ruins me—there’s no way to come to an understanding with something like this. as senator chris murphy asks, rightfully so, what are we doing?